This trapped animal look was awful. That’s not the Winter Soldier. That’s the scared little kid he turns into when he’s confused and in pain. Because the Winter Soldier is a machine. But when the scrap of Bucky that’s still in there starts banging around, the machine goes fetal and he just reverts to this child like thing.
And he knows there’s no help coming. There’s no extraction or exfil plan for the Winter Soldier. He gets himself out or he goes down with the ship. And he’s failed at his mission, so he’s probably expecting Steve to kill him here. He can’t understand why Steve saves him. He’s scared and he’s confused and he’s angry and he doesn’t like feeling any of these things because he doesn’t understand them at all and he liked it better when he didn’t have to feel them.
Oh god this hurts me on a fundamental level because I am convinced that Bucky never really stops wishing for the old days. Like, he comes back to Steve and Natasha and he is a person again, but when it gets intense and the nightmares are too much and he’s already called Sam three or four times to talk about it (because Sam doesn’t understand everything, but Sam knows how to talk to soldiers with PTSD and Bucky Barnes has got a RAGING case of it) he just wishes for Pierce to show up and put him in the chair and tell him it will be fine and just take it all away. Because being a thing is easy but being a person is too, too hard.
Wow I am seriously breaking the fuck up with you.