Guys, I think this has been a long time coming, but with everyone so busy (apparently we all have lives now. Go figure.), and with everything in ATOAD being as interconnected as it is, it’s really rare that we all have separate time at the same time to talk through things and really move plot points effectively.
And as much as I dearly love this thing we’ve made together, I think that I have to step away from it. I think that there is just so much going on in ATOAD in so many different directions, and keeping all of that coordinated and motivated is just too much.
I still want to write with you guys, and if you want to do some one on one writing with me with just a couple of characters, is be happy to.
But I have just gotten to the point where I don’t think we’re able to keep up with the very vast sandbox we’ve carved out for ourselves,and I feel like I’ve just been spinning my wheels, and I can’t handle it anymore.
I’ll keep this blog active, as well as my writing blog, so you don’t have to worry about losing any content or moving it or anything. And obviously you guys have my Skype and my personal blog and my number, so I’m not gonna stop talking to you or anything.
I really do love all of you, for real.you’re probably some of my best fucking friends in the world. And again, if you want to hammer out some one on one stuff, just talk to me.
"will you get this annoying dumb ass bird fucking away from me"
This trapped animal look was awful. That’s not the Winter Soldier. That’s the scared little kid he turns into when he’s confused and in pain. Because the Winter Soldier is a machine. But when the scrap of Bucky that’s still in there starts banging around, the machine goes fetal and he just reverts to this child like thing.
And he knows there’s no help coming. There’s no extraction or exfil plan for the Winter Soldier. He gets himself out or he goes down with the ship. And he’s failed at his mission, so he’s probably expecting Steve to kill him here. He can’t understand why Steve saves him. He’s scared and he’s confused and he’s angry and he doesn’t like feeling any of these things because he doesn’t understand them at all and he liked it better when he didn’t have to feel them.
Oh god this hurts me on a fundamental level because I am convinced that Bucky never really stops wishing for the old days. Like, he comes back to Steve and Natasha and he is a person again, but when it gets intense and the nightmares are too much and he’s already called Sam three or four times to talk about it (because Sam doesn’t understand everything, but Sam knows how to talk to soldiers with PTSD and Bucky Barnes has got a RAGING case of it) he just wishes for Pierce to show up and put him in the chair and tell him it will be fine and just take it all away. Because being a thing is easy but being a person is too, too hard.
Wow I am seriously breaking the fuck up with you.
Personally, I’d like as many children as I can pop out, I reckon. You come from a happy family; you want to create a happy family. And in the same breath, I’d like to be on stage at England’s National Theatre, doing Miller and Chekhov.
That’s the spot
Have some Wolf Bigby and Miss Snow